Monday, February 27, 2006
Today went to gym in the morning, haha realise that my stamina is super bad now, used to be able to run for 1 hour, now I can't even run for 10min. Cannot deny the fact that I am old le haha. Feel so demoralised. Stop running for only 2 weeks and my stamina become so bad.
Later accompany my friend Sandra to BHI Model Agency, it's a scam.. people. All they do is ask u to purchase their "wonderful" make-up kit at $500 while they claim that their grooming lesson are free. Please do not let these so called modelling or advertising agency fool you into spending bucks on their portfolio or make-up kits.
Then in the evening, I went to NCSS( National Council of Social Service) to attend a talk on Introduction to Voluntary work. The talk was interesting and after I manage to stablise my work schedule, I should be able to have some serious contribution to the society. heee.... By any chance if your guys are interested in social work too, do drop me an sms and we can help out together!! It will be meaningful to add a smile to someone life.
Nothing really interesting to blog today haha. Will pen my thought again tomorrow. Until then good night and sweet dream everyone.
Snack for the day: The passion to delight requires commitment and time, the next thing they need is for you to leave their life when they are just beginning to draw a rainbow next to the sunset. (Feeling confused? haha) ok lah better explain-
The speaker named Eric from ncss mention that in order to be a successful volunteer, you need both commitment and time. He recalled that there was a Lady called "Mary" who eagerly sign up to be a volunteer in one of the children home. During the first week, she brought storybooks with her and the kids love it. The second week came, and she brought board games with her and the kids enjoy it. Soon by the fifth week, she was the favourite lady of the children and they adore her. Looking forward to her visit every weekend. However she did not turn up on the sixth week and failed to do so again on the seven week. Worried, the other volunteer decide to call her up to check if she was feeling unwell. When she finally pick up the phone, the reason she gave was : Oh! I have just patch up with my bf, now my weekend are occupied! Sorry I cant go to the children home anymore."
To her the visits she once made may all be in the past, now she is happily in the comfort of her bf. However have she ever spare a thought for the little children who look forward to her next visit every weekend. The next thing they need will be for someone to leave them when they are just starting to experience what is love. Having been abandon by their loved one once, it take alot of courage and time for them to put their trust in someone else, now here she come and break their trust again. I was really inspired by what the speaker say and agree totally with him. What about you? There are so many unfortunate pple out there who need our help and concern. Are you willing to be part of their life by sacrificing just 3hrs of ur time each week to make a difference in someone life? You might feel that your presence oor absence will not make any difference at all but let me tell u this, U ARE WRONG! VERY WRONG! Hope the story below will convince you why:
A writer once went to a beach for some inspiration for his next book. Suddenly a man caught his attention. He was running frantically from the shore then back to the sea. He continue this for another 15min without stopping. No longer able to hold his curiousity, the write decide to approach the man.
Writer: Hey! What are you doing?
Man: I am putting the starfish back into the sea.
On hearing this, the writer suddenly recall that the high tide from the previous night has actually washed up hundreds of starfish to the shore and if they are not back in the sea when the sun rise they are going to dried up and die. The man was trying to throw the starfish back into the sea one by one to prevent them from dying.
Writer: How much starfish can you manage to save? There are hundreds of them on this shore, what difference will you be able to make?
On hearing this, the man did not response. Instead he frantically run back to the shore, pick up a starfish, walk toward the sea and before throwing the starfish back into the sea, he turn around and say to the writer while waving the starfish
Man: I make a difference to this little starfish.
Now, no longer do we see a man frantically running to and fro from the shore to the sea, instead we see two. The writer was inspired and touch by what the man say and decide to make a difference too. Stop standing by the shore wondering what the other are doing, rolled up your pant and make a difference in someone life too! I really hope that your will be inspired like me too. There are alot of unfortunare pple who really need our care and concern. Do play a part =)
flashbacks of the past [11:00 PM]
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Sunday, February 26, 2006
Been feeling kind of restless since yesterday. So much things to say but I have no idea where to start or how to express these thoughts. I feel that I am someone who tend to keep things to myself. I don't really like sharing with other how I feel or what I am thinking, but surprisingly here I am blogging down some of my darkest secret. Eh... haha not darkest secret perhap since I still tend to refrain myself from pouring my heart out here. Usually, my blog will be phrase in a way that only those who really know me well will understand what I am trying to bring across.
Of cos I am still undergoing my major project of job hunting session now. I was offered a job as a Guest Relation Officer in a 4-stars hotel by my previous manager. I have to give him my reply by Tuesday. At the moment I just send in my application for Guest Care Service Executive over at Pan Pacific Hotel. The job scope is more to the admin side and quite different from what I have been doing for the past years in Pan Pacific Hotel when I was still a Part-time Front Desk Agent and Trainee.
People often ask me if I prefer an admin job or something close to operation. I could not give them a response cos I am in a dilemma too. I have always delight in providing service that create a lasting impression in every guests. The sense of satisfaction that I get from the job is not what an admin job can give me. However at time, if your were to read my previous blogs, being in the service industry do come with it cons as well. Of course as life is, not all guests are pleasant and friendly. There are still nasty and demanding guests as well. They can really make your day or ruin it. But isnt that the uniqueness of the hospitality industry? Everyday you will get to meet up with people from different countries, background and culture. Each come with different needs, demand and expectation of service quality.
However admin life do has it own set of advantages as well. The comfort of stable working hour is what someone at the front line will never get to enjoy. Half day on sat and off on Sunday. 8.30 am to 5.30pm. Compared to 7am-3pm, 3pm t0 11pm, 11pm to 7am. The thought of having to wake up at 4.30am makes me shiver.
Ok i think I kind of made up my mind le, after some smsing with my trainer from Pan Pacific Hotel. I know I am very bad but I think I will decline my ex manager offer. Just hope that I can get into Pan Pacific Hotel, be it as a Guest Care Service Executive or Butler. Gambatte Kudasai!!
Snack for the day: It's never that easy to get out of a dilemma, are u sure u have made up your mind? I doubt so.....
flashbacks of the past [1:42 PM]
Ok so there goes my dream job, but it's ok I am slowly but beginning to accept the fact that there are still other jobs out there waiting for me. Felt horrible the whole day, have no appetite to eat but still manage to swallow down 5 Xiao Long Baos, 1 cookie and cream ice cream, 1 orange, 1 drumstick, 4 biscuits.... haha sound quite alot to me . Haiz I think I am talking rubbish today. My mind don't seems to be functioning normally today. The scenes from the afternoon keep flashing in my mind. "Hey! Get out of my head! I have enough of it..... hate it when pple keep asking me abt it, so if you read my blog here, plus dun ask me what happen today, or else dun blame me if I see RED" eh sound kind of serious, but ya please refrain from asking me qns even if you are damn curious. I will let your know when the time is ripe.
In the mean time, I will have to continue my search for my ideal job while I wait patiently for the release of my uni application. I don't think I can withstand another blow again. Ahhh....
Snack for the day: Maybe this is your direction for me, please continue to guide me and show me your way. Amen
flashbacks of the past [12:08 AM]
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Friday, February 24, 2006
Finally manage to change my blogskin. Not really my style but I like the music and the overall "feeling" kind of match my mood now, so "dada!!!" here it is my new blogkskin for the year 2006!
Have a horrible night yesterday, cant seems to fall asleep. Mr Zhou gong was waiting for me but I was way late for the date. Anyway I went for the interview today and things went smoothly. Of cos I did not agree on the spot as I still have a very important interview tomorrow! But after a talk with one of my ex-colleagues. I am beginning to doubt the opportunity given to me for the Guest Relation Officer offered. Should I be practical and continue my path in a 5-stars hotel or to choose a road which I will be more comfortable in. Eventually, what is the career path that I am looking for?
Haiz if only life does not revolve around choices. But if there are no choices to be made in life, one will complain that life is too "straight" and rigid. One can never be easily satisfied.
Tomorrow will be the BIG BIG day for me! If I get through the first round, "pat on the shoulder" good for me, then I will have to reject the offer given to me by the other hotel and continue to progress for the remaining round of interview and to keep my finger cross that I will pass the second and third round as well. If all fail, "hey get a life! accept that you are ntg" accept what is offered to u! Haiz......i been "haizing" faster than I can breathe these few days.
A photo of my bunch of buddies in Poly! Miss ur girls
Snack for the day: Sometime you just have to step back in life, as one does not always get what they desire- Smile and be satisfied with what God has given cos he has his plan for you
flashbacks of the past [10:31 PM]
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Thursday, February 23, 2006
I am officially self-declared graduate, and officially jobless as well haha. It's kind of strange but I was not really excited when 4.30pm came yesterday. It might have marked the end of my one and only examination paper but I could not sense any happiness or excitement at all. In fact, I felt a tinge of sadness, hmmm or should I phrase it as a longing to be a student sitting in the desk once again. I could not see any future ahead.
Basically I am lost. Lost in the pursue of a road that most have already built and taken. I can see signs at the side of the roads but I dun seems to understand any at all. Most of the cars which used to be at the same starting line as me have already surpassed me. Here I am still struggling with the engine to start the car. I desperately looked at the manual in my hand, all I can see are chunks of word which are too tedious to be carried out. I need help. After much effort, the engine finally started and there goes my little bumpy car on the seemingless endless road. Finally, I saw a junction ahead!
A sign of relief?
Nahh.... I have to make a choice now. Sometime I hate making choices. Especially when one bring u back to the comfort of your home, the other to your favourite hangout place, the third to your favourite ice-cream palour and so for. Why must one be force to make choices in life?
I stop at the junction! Sometime in life, we have to stop our busy schedules and ponder about what you really want in life. Me? I have stopped many a time, too many in fact. However, I am still lost. This blog dun seems to be getting anyway and I bet most of you are super puzzled at what I am trying to drive at right lol. Actually this is exactly how lost I am feeling now if you can really understand. There are many things in life which I want to pursue but life seems too short and time seems too tight. I want to be a Kindergarten Teacher, a social worker, a cabin recruitment executive and most importantly I want to be a cheerful girl who love what she has chosen in life. If only life can be that simple, then I wouldnt be vexing now.
I believe it is the dream for alot of people to further their study in a university, and I am definitely one of them. However, the possiblity of getting in is well..... unknown.
There are so many possiblities:
1) I get into uni-
a) I have to work for 4 months and quit
2) I did not get into uni-
b) Continue my job and hope to further my study oversea maybe in 1 or 2 yrs time
3) If I get into my dream job
c) Forsake the chance to enter a local uni if I manage to get in
4) If I did not get my dream job and uni
d) I can rot at home and cry my heart out! haha jus kidding
See see I am so confuse. I have to wait till 31 March for the result of my application for the local uni. In the mean time, am I suppose to tell my future employers that I am looking for along term job or just a temporary job till school start. Haiz
People help!
Ok enuff about those mind taxing issue. Let talk abt something more heart lightening. yay went MOS yesterday with Pat,XJ,Lay Hoon, Kerin and ehhh dunno how to spell her name. OOps. Kind of tiring but its nice to relax after one whole semester of school without shopping. Finally manage to satisfied my craving of xiao long baos thanks to Mr XJ. Perm my hair as well yesterday but hmmm not much effect. Nuff say! haha in case I goes bonker over the failure of my hair.
Here are some photo taken yesterday
I look so blur loh, with a tissue in my hand
Lay Hoon and me taking photo after eating so fries
My best pal Patricia and me in the toilet of MOS, the toilet looks terrific
Snack for the day: Sometime life is just like a bumpy little car trying to find it way on the road
flashbacks of the past [7:50 PM]
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