It such a hectic day today. I was suppose to meet Esther at 11am at City hall. Happily I make my way to Sembwang MART station, only to realize that I have left my ezlink card at home. And to add to all this horror, the sun is scorching hot like like mad. And to add on, I am wearing a long sleeve black top and jean. HELP!!!
Ok that is beside the point. After my medical check up at Marina square, I realize that I have to go to Raffle hospital at Bugis for the X-ray. Haiz. In the first place they should have ask me to go straight down to Raffles Hospital for the check up right. Now I can only go for the X-ray next next week. Since they only permit me to go mon-fri 8.30am to 5pm and before 12.30 for sat. I have to work ya..... dotz! Why must they have such thing call :Pre-employment medical check up" Haiz I think that my naggy mood now is due to the fact that my colleague has just tender her resignation yesterday. Man.... why? I hate everything that happen around me now. All the stress from work and so called "friend" are piling on me every second every minute of my life. I need to breath desperately. I never thought that friend can turn to foe in just one second, or due to one stupid decision. I am really lost! I really want to get into uni, I don't know why, but it is as if a part of me inside my body is screaming to get into one. Perhaps I am still not ready to be tied down by a career, one that is supposingly to last till i turned 60? or maybe till I can become a taitai and have my cup of tea and plates of dessert at a posh hotel with some other taitai. Yah a taitai..... I don't think I am suited to be in that shoe.
Well anyway, at least something happy took place today. I am so glad that I finally make the first move in pursuing one of my passion in life - To help the less fortunate. Silra home looks very different from what I imagine it to be. It's really new and I would say it looks really nice in fact. Initally when I just step in, I was really lost. I didnt know what to do except to smile non-stop at all the old folks I see on my way. "Hi! " was all I manage to say with my smile which seems to be stuck to my face. The folks there with a few exceptional were all very friendly. I started to feel at home there within 10 min. I cant wait for next Saturday to come, I cant wait to talk to them again. There are a few who left a deep impression in me. The life story that they tell me taught me alot. Things they say really make me ponder and reconsider about values in my life which I have always thought and perceive it to be right since it is the norm.
Hey I dun think you will be reading this but just wanna tell u to cheer up. It has already been 2 years since the incident. I am sure you will be a wonderful leader in ministry like how you used to be. Don't let that bother you, I have absolute faith in you. =)
Snack for the day: Believe in him, have faith and he shall bestow you with the strength and wisdown you need.
flashbacks of the past [11:08 PM]
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Phew! One week has past, fast? hmmm not really. Slow then? Well it is not really slow too. The first week has been kind of like an adapting period for me to get familarize with the job environment as well as the job scope and expectation for me. I guess I should be able to survive the 3 months probation period. My goal now is to lose weight. Man! I have gain weight again. I have been eating non-stop in the office, what a glutton!
Today, I overslept and manage to wake up only at 1.30pm. Sorry Ai Ning, I feel so bad, always have to make you wait for me. Ai Ning and I went to SMU for the open house and well I can only say that my perception of SMU change totally. Now I kind of feel like studying in SMU. I really hope that I can get into an university. Haiz.
Hmmm got to rush off to watch TV le. That all for today, will pen down my thoughts soon.
Snack for the day: If only the path is clear, if only I can read the signs on the road. If only I am not blind by the hassle of life.
flashbacks of the past [9:32 PM]
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Wednesday, March 08, 2006
Hmmm today is my third day of work. I was suppose to have my last day of Fidelio Training today, but my trainer was super sad so he has to take 2 days of MCs. Well I was busy updating the photos of the VIPs in my hotel. Took me the whole day for ard 100 guests. Well it is simple I would say but very time-consuming. Learn quite alot of things today. I realise that there are really alot of paper work to be done. Well, I am sure I would get the hang of it soon. Starting to like my work desk more with each passing day as I add bits and pieces of my belongings to liven it up. Too bad, one of the colleagues will be leaving soon. Sobz. I really like her cause she is the most patient person in the whole office, always teaching me stuff. Haiz.... Eng Ling if you see this, can you please take back your resignation form? You have been working in Pan Pacific for at least 10years le loh. Don't go lah, I will really miss you. (As if you will see this..... Haiz)
Well, reading of VIPs report might not be really scary to other, but to me it is the worst nightmare that come with the whole package of my job scope. I drag the day for me to read out the VIPs report. I don't mind if it is to my office colleagues only, why does it have to be to all the big shots in my hotel.
Ok I am suppose to be sleeping at 10pm tonight. Been sleeping at around 12-1am this few days and I have to wake up at 6am in the morning. If this were to continue I am definitely going to become a panda soon. Really feeling very restless and my whole body ache like nobody business. Now I finally understand how Esther feel like lol. Girl! I so tired loh. You must also jia you in your work k. Let work hard together. haha
Snack for the day: You are being love just the way you are =)
flashbacks of the past [10:12 PM]
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Today is my first day of work officially, well initially I was really looking forward to it but due to a misunderstanding between me and my friend, I kind of drag it. Hmmm well for a first day of work, I would considered it to be relatively smooth. I was make to get familiarize with my working desk and office, go through stuff like grooming standard, schedule and certain job scoop and expectation required of me. Then I went for the Fidelio Training, making it the 3rd time in this one and a half year.
Tomorrow I will be attending the GM cocktail which is usually held every Wednesday but for this week it will be held on Tuesday instead. And since we happen to have an art exhibition in our hotel now, the venue chosen for the cocktail will none other than the foyer outside the exhibition. I am basically an idiot in Art, I can only draw with crayons and hmmm colour pencils. I know nothing deeper than that. I would like to appreciate art but I think it will take up half of my brain juice. But still I am kinda looking forward to it. There is always the first time, where pple tend to be clumsy and stuff, if I didnt not make an effort to try, how will I know I am not able to do it. I am really curious what the ops meeting is all about, shall follow deewi to it on Thursday, soon I will be left to fight the war on my own. I think this coming Saturday will be the day! I will be left stranded alone in the office. Sobz! Why is everyone having their Saturday off on this week? Fine I shall have the whole office to myself haha. That the disadvantage of being a new staff, pple already had their schedule all plan out and I can only take the remaining slot.
Hmmm I think I really got quite alot to say about work today. I am given a desk to myself, a computer, a phone, a chair hahaa ok tat rubbish and other stuff too lah. Now my mind is occupied with ways to decorate my desk to make me feel like working more. The only bad thing is I have to share a cabinet with my friend. Hmmmm it is really cramp, I have no idea how I am going to fit my bag inside. Why cant I just use the cabinet under my table instead of letting the girl beside me use my cabinet? haha I know it is kind of confusing. Well I guess I have to end soon, have to wake up at 6 tomorrow. Have to report by 8.15am tomorrow. Shall update u guys tomorrow again. Till then, take good care of yourselves k. Night! =)
Snack for the day: Being apologetic does not help in a situation when a childish person is involve.
flashbacks of the past [9:56 PM]
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Eh been kind of tired yesterday so did not manage to update my blog. Shall tell ur briefly what happened yesterday now.=)
As mention I have an interview scheduled at 8.45am with Pan Pacific Hotel yesterday. As fate would have it, the stupid train choose to have it stupid track problem yesterday. It would stop for at least 5min at every station. Of all day, it choose to have such a problem on the day I am going for my interview. Things are definitely not going my way. At 8.30am I am no where close to city hall. At 8.50am I am still stuck at Newton Station. I was so panics that the thought of calling up the HR department to delay the interview did not struck me at all. So there I was, perspiring in my blazer, looking frantically at my watch every 10sec, imagining all kind of awful things that will happen when I step into the HR office later. Suddenly, my phone ring: Oh NO!!! The number display on the phone give me a shock. It's a call from the HR office! Priscilla from HR question my location and when I inform her that I am stuck in the train due to track problem, I can clearly sense the doubt in her voice. Obviously she does not believe in what I say at all. Exasperated, I tried my best in explaining the situation but clearly I failed, her voice show it all.
As expected, I am going to have my interview with a SUPER IMPORTANT( let name her Jean) character in my hotel. Many fear her because of her position in her hotel and her infamous expectation of the staff in the hotel. That is why she insist in meeting all the candidate for interview personally. Priscilla inform me that Jean will only be free at 9am and ask me what should I do since I am obviously still stuck in the train at 8.55am. This question make me dumb founded. What am I going to answer her? She is asking me what I should do?? What am suppose to answer her? Stupidly I reply: I don't know. My mind seems to be filled with Peanut butter then, I clearly know that there is no way I am going to reach the hotel by 9am given the situation then. Why does bad thing have to happen to me all the thing when I have an important appointment. Fortunately for me, Priscilla manage to arrange a time with Jean at 9.20am for me instead. I doubt that I will be able to make it by this time as well, but it is the last chance given to me and I have to agree to it no matter how impossible it might be. I decided to get off the train at Somerset and take a taxi down instead. I do not want to risk staying in the train hoping that it will go smoothly all the way to City hall. Even though I will have to take a good 10min to walk all the way to Pan Pacific. And when I say 10min, it means running through city link, raffle link, up to city hall and to marina square. By the normal rate it should take something close to 20 min. Luckily for me, I manage to reach Pan Pacific at 9.23am. I was right to take a taxi.
When I reach the HR office, "Piss" was shown all over Priscilla face. She was obviously not very happy with me. She didn't even seems to want to talk to me as she just pointed at a room. Confuse I look at her, unwillingly she say: Wait in the room first! Haiz.... First Impression? I surely did make an impactful first impression but you can be sure that it is definitely not a good one.
As I waited nervously in the room for Jean. I cant help but imagine Jean reaction to be worse than Priscilla. Since she was well known for being particular about stuff like punctuality and responsibility. Arghhh. At that thought I really feel like leaving the room, leaving the hotel and just forget about the interview. Suddenly after about 20min, Jean finally appear. "Hi Pei Ling!" was the first thing she say to me with a smile. I was shock. I smile back at her sheepishly. As I was late, she has to interview another canadidte before me. So Priscilla took this chance to interview me first or should I say " Tortured" me. She is obviously trying her best to make thing super difficult for me. All the questions she posed are super idiotic.
1) What do you think as a fresh graduate, you will be able to bring to our hotel?
2) Why do you think you are suited for the post?
3) Why did you choose our hotel?
4) What are your strength? give example
5) Are you able to take up desk bound job?
6) What are the offer given to you by the other hotel and who are they?
7) What do you understand about our hotel?
8) Do you have any other plan?
9) The worst qn- Is $XXX the lowest you will go for your salary?
The lists since to go on and on. It just seems that she is trying her best to come up with a question that make me speechless. Fortunately, I manage to answer all her questions.
Initially I kind of regretted for answering so firmly that I will not compromise anything below $XXX for my salary. However after a talk with one of the staff in Pan Pac I really regretted not stating a higher salary. I should have put something higher . At least there are area for negotiation then. XXX is way too low as they told me for the position I am applying for. What am idiot I am. Haiz.
Btw Jean was really friendly. Obviously she seems to know me which I felt kind of strange as I didnt talk to her much during my time in Pan Pac as a Part timer and a trainee. I guess I manage to give her a good impression then as she didnt really question me much. Instead she was really keen in applying me. The interview with her was a breeze. In total I was interview by 3 person yesterday and as I was told I was accepted. The pay will be told to me later by Priscilla when the contract are done. Hmmmm.... I wonder! will she give me XXX or will she try her luck by offering something lower. Haiz really should have stated something higher. So stupid of me. Now that I have gotten the job, I know that there are more for me to vex again. You people must be confuse right but yah I can see that for the days to come, I will definitely be stess out. I will be going for ops meeting leh!!!! Die, why didnt anyone tell me before tat. Btw an ops meeting is where all the big shots get to attend everyday. I am just a small fry and I will be given the task of informing them of the VIPs arrival for the next day. die! I heard that they are going to make life difficult for me as they are going to pose alot of questions. Haiz.... Best! I think I am going to have more peanut butter stuck in my brain by then.
Furthermore, I am still not sure if I will be going to a local university, if I am then probably I will have to quite my job by June. If I were to do that, machiam die. I am going to be blacklisted from going back to Pan Pacific for sure. No doubt about that! On one hand I really want to enrol into a local uni but on the other hand if I were to get in, I will feel bad about leaving the job. What should I do? The reason I choose to get into a full time job now is because I am not sure that I will be able to get into a local uni and I am worried that I do not get a job asap they will mostly be taken up by the time the uni result is out as a lot of people including Poly and JC graduate will be applying for job then. At that time,it will be even harder for me to look for a job and it will definitely be very competitve.
I just hope that Priscilla can give me a call soon to tell me when I can start work and I hope that I will be able to work hand in hand with deewi. I have always admired and respected her during my time as a trainee. Never have I expected that I will be holding the same position as her from now on given her 15 yrs experience in Pan Pacific. Thinking of it give me a shudder. What will she think of me? Will she be angry that a fresh graduate were to get the same position after all her hard work for 15 yrs. Hmmm she shouldnt be lah, I am sure her salary is way way higher than mine. Haiyo I really stupid leh. If only I have went to talk to them first. Aiyo. $400 do make a lot of difference leh. Haiz
Hmmm now let talk about today. Breakfast I have egg and bread toast with butter and sugar. Haha my day sound boring right. Yah you are right. Therefore I have nothing much to update your with haha.
Snack for the day: Passion plays a part in everything you do
flashbacks of the past [3:14 PM]
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Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Just as I have finally make up my mind to accept my ex-manager offer for the job over at his hotel, I received a call from Pan Pacific asking me down for an interview on Thursday. I decide to forward the interview to Wednesday so that I can inform my ex-manager that I will be replying him later by a day on Wednesday instead of today. However, feeling guilty, I decide to call him up immediately instead of waiting till Wednesday to reject his offer, cos I feel that if I am being very unfair to him by making him wait for my reply.
Now here I am blogging in at 1.11am when my interview is at 8.45am tomorrow morning. Well, I am really not sure if I will be able to get the job or if I will be able to perform and be happy at the job. Just let nature take it course bah.
Went to watch Pink Panther today, haha it is a lame and funny show. The main actor is really super cute. Like his french accent. Remind me of my french friend and teacher. The way they talk are really cute. "am bah ger" haha -"hamburger actually" Watched final destination 3 on Sunday as well. Ok not too bad but the plot seems kind of rush, one murder happen right after the other. It has been a long time since I really watched so many movies at a time. Well, still considered value for money as they are quite nice. Hmmm maybe 3 stars for Final destinational 3 and 3.5 stars for Pink Panther? I heard from Patricia and Esther that "Broadback" mountain is nice. (eh paiseh cant really remember how to spell it haha) Too bad! It's R21 and I am only mere 19 considering the fact that my birthday has yet to come.
Oh talking about Birthday. Happy 21st Birthday to you Claire. Have a great time over at your chalet today. The food was great, especially the cheese, ham and golden mushroom haha. Too bad I cant seems to differentiate the stingray, sotong, corn from the mushroom since they are all wrap inside the aluminum foil. Ended up I didn't get any golden mushroom except a mouthful from Amanda's plate hee.
Feeling really very confuse now. It's seem that I am just giving unnecessary problem for myself to vex over. Feeling very down too. Confidence level has been falling at a tremendous rate each day. Getting sleepless also, at this rate, I am going to become a Zombie Panda soon. I really have no idea what will cheer me up at this time. I cant even seems to have a good laugh while watching Pink Panther today, it just seems that my mind are too preoccupied with alot of things. Been eating alot these days, it's really bad cos this is the common syndrome I get when I am feeling super down. At this rate, not only am I going to become a Zombie Panda, there is a high possibility that I will be an overweight one. Haiz. Another day has past and I just get sadder.
Snack for the day: Just cant seems to think of something that will make me smile. When is the last time that your really have a good laugh? I tried but I just cant seem to recall mine... ...
flashbacks of the past [1:09 AM]
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